1/6/2024
Subtle Ego
Ra Collective, I found myself mulling on the message,
I just channeled from you.
Touching on my feeling not worthy to channel you etc.
I thought why is Ra Collective touching on that topic again?
When it came to me,
Because it is still very much with me.
And they needed to address it.
Ra Collective, help me to explore this.
I saw a glimmer of it just now.
It is my ego, not the proud ego.
But the one spur by human respect.
What is subtle about it is,
At the back of my mind is the thought.
They might say, “Who does she think she is?”
“Does she really think she is channeling the Ra Collective?”
“The Ra Collective !”
That thought played at the back of my mind.
And was brought to the forefront of my mind.
I thought, eyes narrowing to slits,
I will handle this, I will take care of it.
So, I am channeling the Ra Collective?
And what not?
I have 50 years of meditation at my belt.
That has to account for something.
Even if I am wrong,
What does it matter?
As long as I err in all sincerity.
As I told my siblings.
Who had reservations about my channeling.
What does it matter, as long it makes a better person.
And I am a better person.
For Channeling Ra Collective and others.
I am moving away from this self doubts etc
About channeling the Ra Collective.
They chose me to channel them.
That is the only fact I will stick to,
Discounting all the rest.
Ra Collective, what do you have to say to me on this?
We are glad you are confronting this head on.
There is nothing like clearing something off by confronting them.
We know we can trust you to do it.
By bringing the matter to the fore.
You should give yourself more credit for channeling us.
It is not easy to channel us.
You worked at it relentlessly, tirelessly.
Without giving up, going after it day after day.
Three hours of meditation daily for over one and half years.
Before you were able to channel us.
That is a lot of tenacity, dedication and you did it.
You did yourself proud.
Does it matter what others think?
What others would say?
You are the one most verbal about,
Not letting what others think, what others say,
Rule your actions, control your actions.
The ego is subtle indeed.
It operates in the background.
Often ruling, controlling your actions.
Not many are able to face it as squarely,
In the face as you.
You have a knack for that,
Transparency that makes those who are very private,
Wince, and blush for you.
But that is your specialty.
By that means, you are able to reach others.
With similar situations or being.