I have been aware, like an observer of my self,

that a part of me remained divorced from everything around me.

That even as I give of myself wholly, generously,

That part of me remained intact, uninvolved, separated.

I used to believe, it is the part of me that is wholly given to God,

which is why I am not really able to love or give my heart wholly.

I often felt like a hypocrite because peo[ple would tell me

I have so much love to give, when I did not feel it,

and felt instead, this separation.

What is it, Blue Avians?

You are a wounded being.

It is that little girl peering out,

mistrustful of the world,

not willing to give her heart,

to commit her heart,

in case she gets hurt again.

It is a protective mechanism,

and very strong in you.

For that reason, you seldom,

give your heart over easily.

Even when you do,

you keep a part of it back,

a part of it, safe and secure.

So that if you get hurt, betrayed,

that part of you is intact,

and able to survive.

It is that strong survival instinct of yours.

You thought you grew out of that little girl,

It is very much present within you.

You thought you know everything about you.

You do not, though you are aware of it.

Because some time back, you saw a part of yourself,

You reached inward, wanting to access it.

It went out of reach, so deep inside,

you were not able to access it again.

When the time is ripe, you will see it again.

Growth happens over time, in perks.

Life’s journey is a slow gradual process.

You cannot rush things even if you want to.

So just trust the Universe and let it take its course.

When the time is ripe, that cavern will open.

You will see it for what it is, and work with it.

Freeing yourself even more from your ego self.