My heart feels so full.

There seems to be something happening with me.

Yet, I do not know what it is.

I find myself resting in that energy, just basking in it.

It is as though a part of me is occupied by it,

entering into semi trance state.

I was at the doctor’s office yesterday, and talked to her.

Due to this feeling, it was like, I was talking to her,

yet hear myself like I am far away.

I came back and stayed in meditation.

I willed myself to see but do not see.

I just feel it, this energy that holds me enthralled.

It is still holding me enthralled today.

RA: Blue Avians, what is this energy?

It is now at my crown chakra, 

gripping the upper reaches of my head in a tight grip.

It is the energy of the God Source.

The same energy that took possession of you 

when you were at the monastery.

You experienced the same energy.

However, when you were at the monastery,

it was the first time you experienced it,

Hence you felt it more.

Although, today, you feel it no less.

It has a strong tight grip on you.

On your inner faculties.

You do not want to do anything,

but slide into that Source and stay with it,

in a kind of oblivion.

You just want to be lost in it.

Watch it as it holds you enthralled.

Yet when you look at it,

as always, you do not see anything,

but feel the power of its possession.

You wish you could stay with it forever,

And not do anything, but alas,

there is so much you need to attend to.

And so you accomplished them.

forcing yourself to concentrate and get them done.

They tell you, you are like the saints and sages.

Teaching by just being you, in silence.

Just being you is actually no easy feat.

It took you half a century of dedication to arrive here.

Why do you deny being the advance soul you are?

It is easier to deny it and just keep telling yourself,

you are nobody, simple and very ordinary.

You use your humble beginnings to drive that home.

Why, because it feels comfortable.

You do not want the glitter, pomp and noise,

of being otherwise,

Yet you are otherwise.

You are a vessel, a vessel of the Infinite Creator and ours.

For you have pledged yourself to serve our cause.

We will avail ourselves of you.

We are already availing ourselves of you.

Through you, others will be touched and assisted.

If not by direct contact, by indirect contact.

Think of it as energy, electricity.

You reach a person, that person has it.

The person reaches out to another 

and the other person has it.

In that manner, it spreads far and wide.

You do not even know how far and wide.

You measure it by the amount of subscribers

and views your videos receive.

But, the effect is far more reaching than that.

You are not able to see it.

And prefer to stay in the safety net of oblivion,

You fear if you leave it, if you come out,

you will be viciously attacked.

So you hide in your cocoon.

It is not the first time you do it.

You have done it most of your life.

You are aware of the spirit in you,

Aware, unleashed, it can affect multiple things.

However, a part of you prefer to shrink back,

and stay in the safety zone.

It will not be forever.

When the time is ripe, and we move things,

you are as little able to stop it,

as the flow of rivers.

Try stopping a river, its energies,

gushes forth, flow forth,

filling every crevice and nooks.

It is not you, but the Divine Source.

You are but a carrier.

You might wish to stem it, to control it.

When the time comes, you will be little able

to control or contain it.

Energy, Sources has a power of their own.

When the time comes, it will be released,

all the energies you harnessed will break forth.

It will spill over, it will burst open and you will not be able to stop it.

Though when that happens, you would not mind it.

You will watch the sparks, 

the fireworks and recognize it is not you.

But the Divine spark in you bursting forth.

You will be as you are now,

in the world yet not in the world.

Feeling the homesickness of being in this physical body.

Missing those of your own kind.

for you are not human.

You are what is called an alien being in a human body.

Do you want to know what you look like?

We, blue Avians, can described it to you.

You are tall and slim, with big eyes and no hair.

Your big eyes are dark and piercing.

Without hair, and by human standard, weird.

You nonetheless looked stately, in your form,

as fifth density eons ago,

Now, when you cross over, you will not have a body,

you will be a pillar of light for you are a light being.

You can understand how hard it is for you,

a light being to be contained in a human body.

What am I then?

Pleiadian, we are your soul family.

Am I not Arcturian?

You were, you were also from other planets.

You do not come from one planet only.

The image we showed you of tall, slim, stately being,

with big lovely eyes, albeit no hair,

is that of a pleiadian.

You were a reptilian too, with scaly body.

Narrow slits of dark pupils with yellow surrounding it.

Again, you looked tall and stately,

covered as you were in scales.

I can hardly believe it, RA never told me I was a reptilian.

That was because of your fear of snakes, 

he did not think it necessary for you to know that.

But now, you are of different mindset,

More involved and knowledgeable about these matters.

So we are able to tell you that.

What else was I?

Is that not enough for the day?

We take our leave of you, dear one.

Work on yourself, free yourself from your childhood trauma.

And then the scales will fall from your eyes and you will see and see.

You reach a person, that person has it.

The person reaches out to another 

and the other person has it.

In that manner, it spreads far and wide.

You do not even know how far and wide.

You measure it by the amount of subscribers

and views, your videos get.

The effect is far more reaching than that.

You are not able to see it.

And prefer to stay in the safety net of oblivion,

You fear it you leave it, if you come out,

you will be viciously attacked.

So you hide in your cocoon.

It is not the first time you do it.

You have done it most of your life.

You are aware of the spirit in you,

Aware, unleashed, it can affect multiple things.

However, a part of you prefer to shrink back,

and stay in the safety zone.

It will not be forever.

When the time is ripe, and we move things,

you are as little able to stop it,

as the flow of rivers.

Try stopping a river, its energies,

gushes forth, flow forth,

filling every crevice and nooks.

It is not you, but the Divine Source.

You are like a carrier of it.

You might wish to stem it, to control it.

When the time comes, you will be little able

to control or contain it.

Energy Sources has a power of their own.

When the time comes, it will be released,

all the energies you harnessed will break forth.

It will spill over, it will burst open and you will not be able to stop it.

Though when that happens, you will not mind it.

You will watch the sparks, 

the fireworks and recognise it is not you.

But the Divine spark in your bursting forth.

You will be as you are now,

in the world yet not in the world.

Feeling the homesickness of being in this physical body.

Missing those of your own kind.

for you are not human.

You are what is called an alien being in a human body.

Do you want to know what you look like?

We, blue Avians, can described it to you.

You are tall and slim, with big eyes and no hair.

Your big eyes are dark and piercing.

Even without hair, and by human stardnard you look weird.

You actually looked stately, in your form,

as fifth density iones ago,

Now, when you cross over, you will not have a body,

you will be a pillar of light for you are a light being.

You can understand how hard it is for you,

a lightbeing to be contained in a human body.

What am I then?

Pleiadian, we are your soul family.

Am I not Arcturian?

You were, you were also from other planets.

You do not come from one planet only.

The image we showed you of tall, slim, stately being,

with big lovely eyes, albeit no hair,

is that of pleiadian.

You were a reptilian too, with a scaly body and eyes.

Narrow slits of dark pupils with yellow surrounding it.

Again, you looked tall and stately,

covered as you were in scales.

I can hardly believe it, RA never told me I was reptilian.

Because of your fear of snakes, 

he did not think it necessary for you to know that.

But now, you are of different mindset,

More involved and knowledgeable about these matters.

So we are able to tell you that.

What else was I?

Is that not enough for the day?

We take our leave of you, dear one.

Work on yourself, free yourself from your childhood trauma.

And then the scales will fall from your eyes and you will see and see.