Yesterday, I fell into a state of malhumorada.
What I usually do is retreat into meditation.
Meditation is my healing modality for everything.
When I do not feel well, I go into meditation.
There was the time when I felt unwell.
I am seldom unwell and when I feel unwell,
I panick which does not help.
I went into meditation and as my mind calmed,
I found myself feeling better.
With the malhumorada, it was like a reality check.
It makes me realize I am only too human.
I did the self-enquiry and kept asking myself,
who am I, who am I, who am I,
As I asked myself that repeatedly,
I found myself entering into interiority.
And felt better.
This morning at 4 am, I found myself entering that zone again,
where I could feel myself entering into a different dimension.
It was very nice and peaceful.
States of malhumorada reminds me I am human,
subjected to human emotions.
A good reminder to keep me humble.
Prior to that, I experience that human pride.
Which was very subtle.
My higher self, what can you tell me about such states?
You were experiencing fears of rejection.
Your walls instantly went up.
You retreated into a state of detaching.
It helps you feel safe.
It helps you feel ready for any rejection.
The minus about that is,
you close yourself up.
Retreating into your safe walls of safety.
It is not all nice inside when you wall yourself up this way.
For there is a tinge of bitterness.
And bitterness is not something you want.
And steer clear of.
We suggest, next time that happens,
instead of erecting the walls,
and rettreating into states of detaching,
open out your heart.
Keep it wide open.
Tell youself, I do not fear rejection.
I do not fear the pain of rejection.
I welcome it, I accept it, as I would any suffering.
I embrace it, as learning lessons in life.
Then fill your heart with love,
with such love, it overflows.
And send out that love,
Keep sending that love.
Love heals, love transform.
Love is the medicine for all ills.
Love it shte powerful weapon
that cuts through everything.
Love is your Divine Being.
You come from Love.
To Love you will return.
To the Infinite Creator of love, and all goodness.