I had two novice mistresses as a young nun.

Mother Therese was like a saint, peaceful, unperturbed by anything,

with a sense of humor, loving and understanding.

Mother Margarita was a tall Spanish nun.

When I was with Mother Therese, I was completely honest,

about the struggles I was going through, etc.

When Mother Margarita took over, I soon discovered.

Being honest with her has a price to it.

It was akin to placing weapons in her hands

to use against me and she used it every time.

I stopped confiding in her.

I told her things only that were harmless,

and could not be used against me.

In this field of psychic readers etc,

I have encountered something similar.

Not once, more than once.

Things I confided became weapons used against me,

With one, it was not just used as weapons against me

but used in distorted, highly exaggerated, ugly, blatant lies.

I noticed one similarity.

One would think readers are like counselors.

And could take multiple texts at one time.

But no, it appeared to be bombardment for them.

Especially those, though based on honesty but are negative in tone.

I had healed myself availing myself of the services

of a Jesuit priests years ago.

I wrote him pages and pages, filled with anger, and hate

against the Church, and the nuns.

Unleashing by that means the layers of hurt, anger, resentments

accumulated through years of verbal abuse suffered as a nun.

By that means, I healed myself.

I apologized to the good father who assured me it was fine,

That he knew it was not directed against him,

and termed those letters stream of consciousness.

This, on readers not being counselors

is an interesting phenomena to observe.

I may be wrong or off based in my observations,

It may be my subjective experiences, conclusions.

Nonetheless, I am and will be reminding myself,

Readers are not counselors.

It was my error, not making that distinction.

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