I look inside myself, what do I see, what do I feel?

I have been watching videos exposing New Age Cults.

Suddenly, I am looking at some of the prominent figures with different eyes.

Those big ones, they are all money making machine.

And we, the gullible ones pulled in or almost did for me.

I balked at the hefty price and stalled at the fringe, pulling back.

Then I watched on on Indian gurus, the modern ones, more scams exposed.

What do I do, where do I go?

Go within. I looked inside at my inner darkness.

My house is in order, it is quiet, peaceful and at peace.

The desert of the nadas of St. John of the Cross, that is safer.

The Indian mystics are right, money taints.

I am thinking of papaji’s resistence to money.

He accepted money only for this travel and expenses.

And did not even allow donations for those sessions he was invited to.

RA: my youtube channel, often everything seems so unreal.

Do you really want me to channel you, your messages?

I have pulled back, not actively pursuing anything.

If it is from you, from God, from the Universe, it will happen.

I do not have to make things happen.

A time of soul searching?

I do not do soul searching.

I only sink into my inner self.

In time, things will become clear.

My higher self, God, will talk to me.

And I will listen.

Until then, I will stay in the peace and quiet

of my inner abode.

My ship docked, at rest, not moving.

While I wait for wind to fill the sails and set it going.