I woke up to nothingness, nothingness, nothingness.
The temptation is to seek something to fill the nothingness,
especially as a youtuber.
I am stalling, I am stagnated, what should I do to move ahead?
And that has been my position ever since I became a youtuber.
Now, I train myself to stay in the desert of nothingness.
Now is real, what is with me now? I will stay with the now.
Now, there is silence and quietness inside of me.
It is interesting, I know I do think, the mind does not stop thinking.
But it is as though I do not think, somehow my mind stops thinking.
And I simply exist in this nice peaceful quiet void of nothingness.
I feel so desire, no desire to do anything.
One would think I fall into a state of languor with no desire for anything.
But no, I do take pleasure in little things in life.
I just do not think, it is like just existing, which is nice.
Ra: what state is this?
You are in your original state.
At meditation, you heard the words,
I am the Original me.
What is the original me?
It is the me you entered this life with.
You come in, a clean slate,
with nothing in your soul.
As you grow and develop,
you amass more and more experiences.
Positive and negative.
These form your soul.
As you work on your soul.
You clear the dross, the overthinking,
overfeeling, oversensitivity.
Your original me, freed, takes over.
This original me is clear.
As you saw in your earlier meditation.
You are clear as the water.
and prefer to operate, clear as the water.
When you are clear as the water,
you are able to see unbiased.
Able to see the nature of things in themselves.
Situation as they are.
People as they are.
Water has another element, fluidity.
That fluidity better assists you with reading.
Yes, we are preparing you today for your reading.
Just be, just stay in this desert.
Do not prepare anything, overthink or overfeel.
Especially do not strive to impress.
Just be as you are now and you will do fine.
We will be there, as long as you call us in.
And we will assist you with the rea