I woke up at 1.30 am and lay in the silence and darkness.

Ra, I asked, is something wrong with my life?

Where I am.

Am I doing enough?

Everything seems to come to a standstill, stagnated.

As I lay there, my inner voice told me,

to just stay with the darkness.

I did, I stayed with the darkness.

It was very nice and peaceful

and I drifted back to sleep.

At 3 am, I woke up, again the voice told me,

stay with the darkness.

I stayed with the darkness and the voice asked,

“Look at the darkness, feel the darkness.

How does it feel?”

So peaceful with that silence and nothingness.

In semi-sleep, I saw a vision of me with a group of children.

“Get on board,” the voice said.

We got into the wagon.

And then it was just me and beings around me.

I laughed at the absurdity of it.

The wagon carrying me and my spirit team.

Who are invisible to human eyes.

I became fully aware and wondered what that was about.

I continued to stay in the darkness.

It was so peaceful.

I felt the darkness embracing me, loving me.

It was so beautiful.

I remember writing, let darkness be your friend.

The silence and comfort of darkness.

The very void and emptiness is comforting.

Within that darkness and void,

there is no envy, no jealousy, no hate, nothing

but just be and being.