My spirit team gave me an antidote to envy, jealousy.

What is the root cause of my envy, jealousy?

I will touch on one only.

Envy of those, who excel in things I would wish to.

Envy, jealousy,

What is the difference, you may ask?

There is no difference between the two, you may say.

However, there is a difference.

A marked difference.

One could be envious,

Yet be happy the other has it.

And has no desire to take it from the other.

With jealousy, one wants what the other has.

Or does not want the other to have it.

And would do anything to take it from her.

Or destroy what she is.

That, of course is in dire form.

Not all go that far.

Spirit showed me in a flash,

A valuable insight.

That, I am good with my own things.

That we are all gifted differently.

Hence there is no cause for envy, jealousy.

When we bring to the table,

Our many and varied gifts.

Then the table would be glorious.

And rich with every texture, fibre imaginable.

Enriching each other.

The pastor who succeeds.

Who has a rich, vibrant, thriving community.

Is one who is able to bring to the table.

Various persons with various gifts.

Not only appreciating their gifts.

But employing them to good use

A pastor who is the reverse.

Who wants to be the sole good one.

Who puts down and push away.

Any who excels because they threaten his autonomy.

His parish grows stale and dwindles.

What did St. Paul say?

That we each have our own gift and role to play?

What spirit told me did work the magic for me.

It cleared the air for me.

Providing like an antidote.

So I do not see angels, or souls of the dead.

So I am not able to ask my spirit team,

On the spot and hear them.

So I am not able to see the spirit guides,

Of those who come to me.

I have what a loved one much coveted.

Trance meditation.

She is able to see spirits, channels Jesus.

She saw Mother Mary and St. Therese.

She suffers like a saint.

And one thing she envies,

Is my trance meditation.

No matter she meditates long hours.

She just wish she has my trance meditation.

So now I sit with my own gifts and abilities.

Sit on my most valuable asset, that of mystic.

Most valuable because it cuts a direct path to the Infinite Being.

Because it is my path to the Infinite Being.