When I was a nun, I would notice,

God seemed to tolerate some flaws.

Until one day he put his foot down.

I would suffer and suffer from that flaw,

And find myself working on that flaw.

After I left the monastery,

I found it to be the same.

It was as though up to a point.

God is indulgent.

Like a loving understanding father.

And let me live with flaws, which

I am aware of and know have to be worked on.

But since God understands, I let it be.

Till the day he puts his foot down.

And give me notice, – work on it.

How do I know when that happen?

When that flaw is brought again and again to the fore.

Yesterday, I stopped to think.

Why, when I had no intention to.

I wrote two sets of verses on jealousy.

I realized I had push it aside.

Dealt with it the same way I hold not to be advisable,

Which is, sweeping it under the rug.

Not advisable because it means.

I am not dealing with it.

I ignoring it.

Believing I could live with it that way.

But no, I am depriving myself.

The arenas, forums I avoid could be sources.

Of immeasurable spiritual wealth.

Ra Collective, my higher self, what do you have to say to that?

You are right.

You are on a path where more and more.

Everything not right, not true, good or genuine,

Has to be cleared.

It is part of that purification process.

Small faults you tolerated.

You would know when Universe tells you.

You have to get rid of them, to advance.

Part of the path is removing debris.

Any debris that gets in your way, 

Delay or stall your process, has to be cleared.

You are sitting back,

Expecting Universe to do all the work for you.

No, you have to do these work yourself.

For that reason, we have been giving you the word, “detach.”

Detaching is part of that process also.

Asceticism, mortification, words you are use to.

Are ongoing process.

You do not sit back and take it easy.

Like the goat you are.

You live up to your Chinese zodiac sign so well.

We have to push you to perform.

Life has not been the same for you.

Ever since you started on this path with us.

We will continue to push but gently.

Because you have free will.

You are always free to choose to do or not do.

When you choose to do it.

It is very helpful for you and your path.

And you know it.

Enjoy this lull while you have it.

In an instant things can change for you.

Literally overnight.

You have seen how we work and operate.

Fast.

We are able to move things, people and events fast.

First we have to get you to shed your self doubts.

That clipped your wings, 

Impede your ability to fly and soar.

We have to get you to grow your trust and faith in yourself.

Which you are doing.

Then we will throw you out into the fray.

Not that we will do it intentionally.

But that you will experience it that way.

Lamenting, groaning, moaning,

You nonetheless will carry it through, effortlessly.

For we are with you.

We are a powerful force of 20 million.

It is not just the entity, you call Ra’ Sha.

But our entire Ra Collective.

He represents us, the entire Ra collective.