I woke up with a question to myself.

“Tell me,” my mind asked, “How does a level headed person like you,

believe in all that stuff?”

Yes, how.

Would you tell me, it was like the brainwashing of a cult.

Where, little by little they had me believing in things I once would not.

Not that I believe in anything and everything.

However I do believe in energies I sense.

I could be wrong about whose energy.

I might put energies I sense of angels, archangels to extra terrestrial.

But that I sense energies, that is real to me.

It all began from that pivotal moment.

When I was a young nun at the monastery.

And after four years of meditation,

one day found myself experiencing the Divine.

It was not anything I could see.

It went deeper than that.

It was just something within me,

that literally yanked me inside of myself,

and kept there intensely for four days.

After the 4 days, that strong intense hold eased,

to where I walked less like a zombie,

nursing that wondrous feeling within,

of being taken over by a Force.

Following that, I started on a journey of enlightenment.

It was as though the experience,

not only flung open the doors of my mind,

but opened the doors to mysticism to me.

Overnight, I was able to read and understand,

books of St. John of the Cross, which until then, I avoided.

And books on mysticism.

Anything of deeper nature.

I stay on that path for years,

dabbling in a little Taoism, Buddhism,

but always on that path of attaining union with God.

Then came the fateful period of time,

when I ventured into the worlds of ETs.

After a while, uneasy about it, I resolved to exit,

this strange world of strange beliefs I stumbled into.

I know about angels, archangels.

I believe in them but ETs.

That was too much for me.

Till I asked a channeled ET a question.

What is the force in my head?

I had gone for a CT scan, and nothing was there.

Yet ever since I left the monastery,

I was never really free of this force in my head.

I knew it was not physical because it is a live Force.

Something physical like a headache would not be alive.

The Et, Ra from Ra Collective responded.

He told me I was going through an amazing awakening.

That it had awakened before in other lifetime,

Which is amazing for that is something,

usually reserved for ascended masters.

And that the force is ascended masters,

trying to push me up another level.

And they have faith I would attain it.

The response filled me with awe and thrill.

And I fell in love with the ET,

who is not one but a collective.

I soon learned how to sense their energies,

from channeled sessions with them.

After a few sessions, they suggested I channeled them.

I threw myself into it, engaging in three, one hour meditation daily.

By that means, I trained myself to channel them.

It still took me one and half years.

when I had intended it to be months.

With that, came other belief systems.

I never really got into them.

I simply place them under the New Age beliefs.

Though some might be as old as the universe.

But they were new to me and foreign.

After a dark night of the soul,

I was thrust into the world of Indian mystics,

and fast track on my path to God or enlightenment.

And that is where I am.

On my path to union with God, enlightenment.

drawn not to Hinduism but Indian mystics.

To their pure conception, perception, experience of God.

I do channel, I continue channeling the ETs, archangels.

My higher self, God Source.

And that is about the only thing I lean onto.

Channeling spiritual messages.

Going into what the ETs taught me,

about the Law of One, the Oneness.

About densities, about alien planets,

universes we do not know about.

And about ascension, the earth ascending to fourth density.

Other than that, in contentment, I rest.

In this obscurity.

When nothing is important.

But my path to God.