Again my heart fills so full,
like there is something there.
Something happening but what?
If I look ahead, what do I see?
I see myself going deeper into this spiritual path.
Uncaring about everything else.
Everything else is secondary and an illusion.
This path alone is reality.
What is this path?
Nothing other than seeking enlightenment,
Union with God, seeking that Oneness.
I am drawn deeper and deeper within myself.
At meditation, I get rapt deep within myself.
Like I am in cavern, empty but for the energy there.
Like being in a void, empty but for the presence there.
A force that holds me enthralled, captivated.
SA: Blue Avians, What is this I am experiencing?
I sense it like a new energy.
It is very strong, concentrated on the upper reaches of my head.
Like this moment in time, it is withdrawing me inside of myself.
Occupied by that Force within.
Is this a milder form of samadhi?
You are experiencing your real self.
Within that reality, only that reality is real.
As a result, you find yourself separating yourself,
from this material world and everything it emcompasses.
Your real self is taking over.
You are experiencing your real self.
It is wrapt in the Divine, in what is not seen.
It is not something your physical self is abvle to feel.
And so it is being pushed aside.
While your real self prevaiuled.
If you close your eyes and allow this force to take over.
What do you see? Nothing.
For this does not fall within scope of the physical.
If you close your eyes and feel, what do you feel?
You feel this force increasing in strength.
Where is it taking you?
Deeper, deeper, deeper.
Do not strive to see or feel.
Just surrender yourself over to this Force.
It will take you along.
It will sweep you along.
You will find it relentless.
You will not be able to fight against it.
You can only go along with it.
for the Divine has taken you over.
Give in, surrender.
Let it sweep you over in its tide.
Take hold of you,
take over you.
You will become dead to the world.
Yet never so alive.
You do not have to worry.
When you need to,
you will attend to things around you.
But be prepared for this force to take you over,
more and more.
Increasingly taking you over.
Till like the Indian saints, sages,
like the mystics Christian saints,
you find yourself rapt off in Infinity.
Your spirit in the other realm.
And your physical self increasingly divorced from it.
As you enter deeper and deeper into trance.
Taken over by the force within.
The same force that took you over when you were a nun.
Four years into your life as a nun.
This is the same Force.
Once it took you over,
it never left you.
It form your life.
It shape your life.
You might have wandered into this or that.
It was and is always there.
A fire burning with you.
A passion you are not able to quell.
Always pushing you on, egging you on.
To seek the Divine.
To seek the Ultimate Reality.
And be one with it.