I look inside myself and there is nothing inside.

And the words, arriving at nothingness came into my mind.

It is arriving at nothingness.

I am aware this is a state of grace.

Arriving at a pure state of emptiness.

Spirit state.

State of pure being.

It is as though one is at a dark planet.

On that planet, one does not need eyes to see.

One is able to see darkly with inner eyes.

I used to be terrified of being blind.

It was one the things I was terrified of,

apart from the fear of not being able to breathe.

The latter could set me into a near state of panic attack.

When I had my eye surgery and was told not to blow my nose,

and congealed blood blocked my nose,

I went into a near panic attack.

And used meditation to calm down and gain control.

My mother had one good eye, with severe diabetes.

My fear was that she might go blind.

Deaf and blind, it was a fate I could not bear to think about.

When she died, I was sad but relieved at the same time.

She had her eyesight to the end.

Recently, with two members of my loved ones’ eyes

threatened by possible blindness.

I faced the fear blindness.

Last night, I watched a movie from China,

of blind Tibetan kids going on TV talent shows.

It was taken from real life, in 2010

when some blind children did sing for the talent show.

As I watched the movie, 

I felt I was operating with blindness with them.

It was not so bad.

I do not fear it as much now.

And with arriving at this state of inner emptiness,

there is even less to fear.

For when the outer eyes closes for us,

inner eyes open for us, whereby we would see darkly

with our inner eyes, our inner senses.

Senses we do not use possessing sight,

will become very acute and sensitized.