Ever since I experienced God, it was always the Godhead for me.

I felt guilty about not being more devoted to Jesus.

I would tell Jesus, “God I experienced and he became real to me,

but you, I have never really experienced you that way.”

The last time I told Jesus that, I felt him, a solid form of energy to my lower right.

I saw with my mind’s eyes, the form, not just of energy but solid.

Let me call his name right now and feel his energy.

It is a very very strong energy, concentrated above my third eye chakra.

Jesus, I have a confession to make.

Moving around those with New Age beliefs,

it is only a matter of time when one sense,

believing in Jesus is not cool, being a Christian is not cool.

It is more cool believing in all those New Age beliefs.

I failed to see, though I have moved away from the channeler 

who got me into this world of New Age,

I was still abiding by what she was into.

I had patterned my life as a channeler after her.

She could tell you all the planets in the universe,

the different ET races, and the likes, not so much Jesus.

I soon started learning things about how Christians hijack Jesus.

That Jesus never meant his teachings to be this way.

That his teachings have been twisted, 

corrupted by those who created Christian religion.

That Jesus never intended to be the cause of wars etc.

The latter I do believe.

It was not until a friend posited the above to me, I bristled and asked her.

“What teachings of Jesus in the gospels are corrupted?”

She could not tell me.

My next question was, “Have you read the gospel?”

The answer was no.

I could believe it when they said Jesus never said he was the son of God.

He meant it in the sense, we are all sons and daughters of God.

But his teachings? I cast it in my mind, look mentally within the pages,

and do not see any teachings that are not good, true and helpful.

the only one that came across as strange, was the offering the other cheek.

Recently, it came to me, it meant not hitting back, accepting the abuse.

He accepted abuse, why? I would advocate against accepting abuse.

Because he came as a peacemaker or the environment he was in?

Applying it today, the Pharisees are toxic people in our life.

Which is better, battle with them or simply move away.

The answer is clear, move away.

Last few days, videos kept popping up with the header,

From the New Age to Jesus. I looked at the headers and turned away.

No, I do not want to watch those.

It sounds too much like, born again Christians.

Jesus’ name has been so used in perverted fashion, I know which to avoid.

While I have always accepted Jesus. I have never accepted the teaching,

one can only be saved through Jesus Christ.

That is a fallacy of beliefs. Jesus would never say that.

He who embraced gentiles and sinners alike.

I do relate to what I learned about Jesus traveling to India and that region,

learning from Hindu and Buddhist mystics.

It explains his teaching.

I had a unique experience one day watching a movie about Jesus.

It struck me how incongruous his teachings were, set against that background.

His teachings on love, peace, compassion.

That he learned from Hindu and Buddhist mystics makes sense.

He embodied those teachings.

Yesterday, the Ra’s energy was so strong, I emptied my mind completely,

and asked them to deliver their messages.

Much to my surprise, the last one was a one minute message,

of calling, turning to Jesus for help, on our path to fourth density.

In former channeled sessions, Ra had often told me,

Jesus and Mary are always with me.

I have always wanted to channel Jesus, but felt Him too beyond me.

I channeled instead, Emmanuel, an aspect of Jesus.

Ra told me Jesus is ready for me to channel him, that I had channeled him before.

Next channeling session, I hope that will happen.