Ra, I feel like I am going through a mini dark night of the soul.

First, there is the pneumonia that recurred,

Then there is the nodule in my lungs.

Same time that was happening, I see lights,

first on the side of my left eye, then in front of my right eye.

Meanwhile, my channel is in stagnation.

Last Friday, it seemed to take off a life of its own.

This Friday, it went slow with two in attendance.

What can you tell me, Ra.

Are you deserting me?

Ra: Is not how it feels in dark night of the soul?

Where you feel God and everybody deserting you.

And nothing goes right in your life.

Do you not feel even in the midst of all this,

your spirit is holding you up in faith and trust.

And even though you engage in some negative thoughts,

these are not real and you know you are only entertaining them.

That deep in your heart, you would not give up on your channel.

And will continue working on them with us.

You are feeling fear, that you might lose your sight.

Is the condition of your eyes not changing from day to day.

Getting better with each day.

First it was the big brilliant flower of white flashing lights.

Then it became a dark shadow of the same flower with a tinge of red.

Then it was a smaller shadow of the flower.

Yesterday, it turned the whitish shadow of the flower.

Today, it turns into a small white patch,

where you are able to see the letters through it.

Before, the shadow had blotted out the letters.

Tomorrow, or day after, it might all be gone.

It is a temporary situation.

What the Universe gives, the Universe can remove.

Train yourself like a faithful servant.

When you are ready, you will be discovered.

And then you would wish not to be discovered.

That you could continue in this obscurity.

Enjoy this obscurity while you have it.

Tomorrow you might not have it any longer.

You have seen with your life, how things can change in a twinkle.

It is because you have the magic, though you do not know you have it.