When I suffered stroke of the left eye and spirit held me up,

where even if I wanted to, I was not able to worry about it.

I had observed that state of being with a feeling of fascination,

though that state of being was not new to me.

When a fellow reader malign me, with ugly blatant lies,

spirit borne me aloft, to where I was not able to feel.

I did suffer from fears, hurt, pain, but most of the time I was held aloft.

When Dr. C told me, “It is either valley fever or cancer.”

My mind saw cancer, Valley fever was an unknown.

I did not think I could have valley fever.

I know many around me to have cancer, but not valley fever.

I came back, and was completely quiet inside.

My dog, Mari, sensed it and shadowed me nervously.

So nervously, I decided to calm her down by going into meditation.

She loves to stay in meditation with me.

She could stay hours in meditation if and when I do.

All the while my mind grapple with the implications.

Mid afternoon, again, I heard Jesus tell me, go to pray.

I did, I went for meditation again.

And then happiness, bliss struck.

It is happiness, bliss with no eyes.

That is what my mother would say.

No eyes, because a doctor had told me I might have cancer.

And instead of being struck with fear and anxiety,

this happiness, bliss struck me.

I started laughing and laughing.

What does it mean? What does it imply?

That it is not cancer, that I have no cancer.

It does not matter.

If heaven wants to give me this bliss,

this happiness without eyes,

I will take it any time.

Such bliss are states of spiritual journey.

Darkness will follow soon enough.

So I will fully enjoy this bliss while I have it.

Thank you, God, Thank you, infinite Creator.

Thank you, Universe, for this gift of joy, bliss.

Sheer bliss without a shadow on the horizon.

That is the reward of spiritual life.

It is always full, never boring, in times of darkness or light.