I woke up this morning, 

And expected to experience

Some niggling sense of unhappiness.

Instead, an inner joy held me up.

A joy that had no meaning.

I did not know where it came from.

It was just a joy that held me up.

As though floating on air.

Even if I want to, I could not feel any pain.

I have experienced this before.

The time I was labeled a stalker.

That was one experience.

That really cut into me.

Because my family and I.

We are law abiding citizen.

We would never go against any law.

And would never stalk.

First, I naively expected members,

Of my community to come to my defense.

None did, till months later when one did..

I would have suffered a lot more.

Were it not for this same feeling.

Almost immediately, my spirit team came in,

With advises, do this, do not do that.

And held me up aloft in this same manner.

And kept me up there, aloft.

It was like I was inured, protected.

With a kind of spiritual anesthesia.

Even if I had wanted to feel it.

I was not able to feel it.

I was held up aloft, like on a paladin.

And I did not feel.

Now and again, I would experienced

Some fear, pain and hurt.

Most of the time, I did not.

Ra Collective, what was that?

It was us, protecting you.

We had told you, we will always protect you.

You thought of protection in terms

Of the matter not happening.

You did not understand why

We allowed it to happen.

You and the other have free will.

What you and the other choose to do.

We cannot interfere.

Through the months you kept asking us.

Why we allowed it,

Why we were not protecting you.

We were.

You were thinking in human terms,

We are spirit,

We do not operate the way you do.

Hence, do not have expectations of us.

To be this way or do that.

You would be judging, gauging,

According to human minds.

And we are spirits.

We are spirits,

We are light beings.

We dwell on a planet on the pleiades.

A planet of light.

You have been there.

We brought you there.

A planet of bliss and happiness.

Unequaled to anything you have ever felt or experienced.

You eliminated us then,

In your pain and confusion.

You turned away from us.

No longer knowing what to believe.

But we were there.

We were and are always with you.

It was a trial period.

You bravely bore through it.

What the other did not know.

Was that you are steeped in the Divine.

Nothing can touch you deep in your being.

You were/are with the Divine.

The Divine is always with you,

Another might not sense the Divine,

But you have experienced the Divine.

With that experience as a nun.

The Divine was/is deeply seated in you.

You are grounded in the Divine.

Nothing, nobody will ever swerve you from it.

That was the knowledge

That eluded the other.

Per your question, what was that feeling?

It is your higher self taking over.

Your eternal self.

Your eternal self resides in the sixth density.

It has no emotions, or feelings.

It is spirit, a light being like us.

When it came through,

You experience what it is.

A being with no emotions,

Unable to feel, for we do not feel.

You were able to feel,

Only that feeling of ebullience.

That feeling of joy holding you aloft.

Where, even if you want to.

You could not come down from it.

In that state, sadness, sufferings, pain, cannot touch you.

You are inured.

For your higher self do not experience any of that.

When you experience the same again,

Say hi to your higher self and thank your higher self.

You can call her Mei Lou.